Is This A Borderline Thing?

I have always wanted to know the ending to films – the ending to books etc. Only then can I relax and enjoy what I’m watching/reading. Also – I absolutely can NOT watch anything sad – not even cartoons! I am really sorry guys but I repeat the story of the hippogriff in this video […]

BPD and Obsessing Over A Partner

I used to think a partner could fix me and make me better…so long as they did what I wanted them to do. If they did something that upset me I would threaten to self-harm – if they still didn’t listen to what I wanted I would then go ahead and self-harm and then I […]

BPD and Sexual Promiscuity

An impulsive reckless behaviour that we may exhibit might be sleeping with strangers. We want to feel loved and secure and often mistakenly think sleeping with someone is the answer to that – which is never is. In fact it more often than not makes us feel so much worse.

BPD, Anxiety, Panic Attacks, and OCD

People  with borderline often have another disorder – whether it’s depression, anxiety or  all of them. Panic attacks are scary – but our body is reacting normally – the problem is when we perceive something to be a threat – and it is not a threat. Our anxiety is not justified.

BPD, Clinginess and Jealousy

With BPD we have a fear of abandonement, we have low self esteem – and we have intense emotions – it’s no wonder we start feeling jealous and then acting on it. We really do need to learn to rationalise things though because our jealousy and clinginess often pushes those we love away.

BPD and Addiction

I believe I was addicted to drugs and alcohol as it was my coping mechanism to help me deal with my unstable moods and intense emotions. Once the bpd was in control the addictions went away.

Making Friends

Suffering with our mental health can cause us to be very lonely. Suffering with anxiety can stop us doing something about this. Here are some tips on overcoming these problems and learning to make friends.

Depression

What is the difference between a low mood and depression? How does depression appear outwardly. I forgot to mention in the video that sometimes .I would literally feel nothing when I was depressed – I was numb inside.  Often  when we are depressed we do not even know we are depressed.  If you think you […]

Is Recovery Possible If Not Offered DBT?

Not everyone is offered DBT – sometimes people are on a waiting list for 2 years or more and other people can’t afford it. What does it mean for these people? Should they just give up on recovery if they are not offered therapy? Absolutely not! Recovery is possible for everyone.

Resentment

The word resentment comes from the from the french word re (as in to do again) and sentir which comes from the Latin word Sentire meaning to feel.  So resentment means ‘to re-feel’. I discuss how resentments start and how they continue and grow and the importance of letting them go.

Black Sheep Project – Get Your Pin!

If you want to receive you own Black Sheep Pin message me privately on here or on Instagram with your name and address and I will get one out to you ASAP!  Remember once you have your pin – to 1. Wear it with pride! and 2. Take a Selfie of yourself wearing it and […]

Jealous Of Everyone

I spent years and years eaten up with jealousy and resentment. I never realised my jealousy goes all the way back to when I was a child.  It is with hindsight that I can see where  I was jealous and the reasons for my jealousy.  Recovery has helped be let go of the negative feelings. […]

BPD and Loneliness

I used to be consumed with loneliness and I really didn’t believe I would ever feel differently. I was so alone and so desperate and yet I didn’t know what to do to escape this feeling.

Being A New Mum When Having BPD

I know how hard it is being a new Mum especially when the borderline personality disorder is not being managed. Lack of sleep, bad food choices and extreme emotions all play a big part, I discuss in detail the problems we have and ways we can help ease them.

Over-Sharing – Is It A BPD Thing?

My whole life I have been an open book and told everyone everything aboutmyself – this has caused me so much hurt in the past. Today I am selective (believe it or not considering I have a TY channel!) with who I share information with and what information I share.

C-PTSD Vs BPD

There are ‘people’ that say c-ptsd is the same as BPD cormorbid with PTSD. I discuss the similarities and the differences in this video.

First Ever Boyfriend and BPD

Hindsight is an amazing thing.  Back when I was 14 I thought I had met the love  of my life and he could do no wrong.  It is only looking back now that I can see the relationship for what it was – abusive and unhealthy.

BPD, My Kids and Me

I received a comment the other day from a lady who had been really hurt by her BPD mother.  Whilst I understand her hurt and anger I have to disagree that all people with BPD are the same.  I discuss my own children in this video and why I don’t believe I minimize things in […]

My Typical Day

It has just been pointed out to me that I mentioned the teddy story twice! I did wonder if I had mentioned it as I started talking and then I thought ‘No – no you didn’t!’ Duh! Sorry guys – serious baby brain and tiredness going on! My Day is like Groundhog day! I get […]

My Weekly Catch-Up (11th August 2016)

My Daughter had to go under general anesthetic after smacking her face in to a windowsill.  It has been a nightmare weekend and I still feel I am recovering from it! My daughter is on the mend but I just want to wrap her in cotton wool! I will be back next week with more […]

Is Borderline Personality Disorder for Life?

When I was first diagnosed with BPD I was so scared that this was it – this was how the rest of my life would be.  Luckily that wasn’t the case – bpd is treatable and manageable and you can go on to lead a happy fulfilling life. Plus you get to meet my boyfriend […]

Steps 6 and 7 of the 12 Steps

Steps 6 and 7 are taken together, thus the video is of them both together. These steps are about becomming willing to have our defects removed. One thing to note is that by doing these steps we are not trying to be perfect – just better than we were!

Step 4 of the 12 Steps

Step 4 is the first action step.  ‘Made a Searching and Fearless Moral Inventory of Ourselves’. In this video I talk about my fears around doing it but also the importance of this step.

My Weekly Catch Up (20th May 2016)

Today is my son’s 5th birthday and it got me thinking about when he was born.  It was a couple of months after his birth that the world that I knew and loved collapsed around me… but I believe I had to go through that to be where I am today.  

My Weekly Catch Up (9th May 2016)

This week my washing machine broke, my car broke and my son threw a middle-of-the-night tantrum!  I have a son that  walks slightly slower than a snail and another  son who thinks it’s fine to wrestle his way out of the pram as it’s moving! Rarrrrrr!

Suicide

I did this video for anyone out there that has or is considering suicide.  I had multiple suicide attempts over the years and it is only now that I am so grateful they were unsuccessful, as life has so much to offer me now.  There was a time when I thought I would never escape […]

The Books By Rhonda Byrne

In this video I briefly talk about the books by Rhonda Byrne. I’ll possibly do another video on this at a later date and talk in slightly more detail! Amazon links: The Secret (Rhonda Byrne). The Power (Rhonda Byrne). The Hero (Rhonda Byrne). The Magic (Rhonda Byrne).

Detox

In this video I discuss alcohol and heroin detox. I must add that detox alone is not an effective addiction treatment. BUT – it’s a vital first step. If someone is not clean, chances are treating them for addiction will not be effective.