Is This A Borderline Thing?

I have always wanted to know the ending to films – the ending to books etc. Only then can I relax and enjoy what I’m watching/reading. Also – I absolutely can NOT watch anything sad – not even cartoons! I am really sorry guys but I repeat the story of the hippogriff in this video […]

BPD and Obsessing Over A Partner

I used to think a partner could fix me and make me better…so long as they did what I wanted them to do. If they did something that upset me I would threaten to self-harm – if they still didn’t listen to what I wanted I would then go ahead and self-harm and then I […]

BPD and Sexual Promiscuity

An impulsive reckless behaviour that we may exhibit might be sleeping with strangers. We want to feel loved and secure and often mistakenly think sleeping with someone is the answer to that – which is never is. In fact it more often than not makes us feel so much worse.

BPD, Anxiety, Panic Attacks, and OCD

People  with borderline often have another disorder – whether it’s depression, anxiety or  all of them. Panic attacks are scary – but our body is reacting normally – the problem is when we perceive something to be a threat – and it is not a threat. Our anxiety is not justified.

BPD, Clinginess and Jealousy

With BPD we have a fear of abandonement, we have low self esteem – and we have intense emotions – it’s no wonder we start feeling jealous and then acting on it. We really do need to learn to rationalise things though because our jealousy and clinginess often pushes those we love away.

BPD and Addiction

I believe I was addicted to drugs and alcohol as it was my coping mechanism to help me deal with my unstable moods and intense emotions. Once the bpd was in control the addictions went away.

Depression

What is the difference between a low mood and depression? How does depression appear outwardly. I forgot to mention in the video that sometimes .I would literally feel nothing when I was depressed – I was numb inside.  Often  when we are depressed we do not even know we are depressed.  If you think you […]

Is Recovery Possible If Not Offered DBT?

Not everyone is offered DBT – sometimes people are on a waiting list for 2 years or more and other people can’t afford it. What does it mean for these people? Should they just give up on recovery if they are not offered therapy? Absolutely not! Recovery is possible for everyone.

Jealous Of Everyone

I spent years and years eaten up with jealousy and resentment. I never realised my jealousy goes all the way back to when I was a child.  It is with hindsight that I can see where  I was jealous and the reasons for my jealousy.  Recovery has helped be let go of the negative feelings. […]

BPD and Loneliness

I used to be consumed with loneliness and I really didn’t believe I would ever feel differently. I was so alone and so desperate and yet I didn’t know what to do to escape this feeling.

Being A New Mum When Having BPD

I know how hard it is being a new Mum especially when the borderline personality disorder is not being managed. Lack of sleep, bad food choices and extreme emotions all play a big part, I discuss in detail the problems we have and ways we can help ease them.

Over-Sharing – Is It A BPD Thing?

My whole life I have been an open book and told everyone everything aboutmyself – this has caused me so much hurt in the past. Today I am selective (believe it or not considering I have a TY channel!) with who I share information with and what information I share.

C-PTSD Vs BPD

There are ‘people’ that say c-ptsd is the same as BPD cormorbid with PTSD. I discuss the similarities and the differences in this video.

First Ever Boyfriend and BPD

Hindsight is an amazing thing.  Back when I was 14 I thought I had met the love  of my life and he could do no wrong.  It is only looking back now that I can see the relationship for what it was – abusive and unhealthy.

BPD, My Kids and Me

I received a comment the other day from a lady who had been really hurt by her BPD mother.  Whilst I understand her hurt and anger I have to disagree that all people with BPD are the same.  I discuss my own children in this video and why I don’t believe I minimize things in […]

Is Borderline Personality Disorder for Life?

When I was first diagnosed with BPD I was so scared that this was it – this was how the rest of my life would be.  Luckily that wasn’t the case – bpd is treatable and manageable and you can go on to lead a happy fulfilling life. Plus you get to meet my boyfriend […]

Suicide

I did this video for anyone out there that has or is considering suicide.  I had multiple suicide attempts over the years and it is only now that I am so grateful they were unsuccessful, as life has so much to offer me now.  There was a time when I thought I would never escape […]