I spent years addicted to cocaine but could never admit that I had a problem, preferring to believe that I was in control rather than admitting the drugs controlled me. Physically and mentally it destroyed me . Luckily I have been clean for nearly 5 years and life is so much better than my using […]
Christmas is a time when we often see family members whom we only see once a year. Sometimes there can be family disputes or awkwardness – Here are a few ways to cope over the Christmas period.
It’s now December 1st and or stress levels can start going through the roof. Christmas can be a difficult time of year and I discuss that and offer some advice.
I believe I was addicted to drugs and alcohol as it was my coping mechanism to help me deal with my unstable moods and intense emotions. Once the bpd was in control the addictions went away.
If you are in a relationship with someone who has the same disorder as yourself it is going to be a difficult relationship – especially to start with. I give you some tips on how to make it work.
I have redone this video, answering a few questions that I received on the first video I did on this subject. I take you back again to the first time I tried it and how it made me feel, but I also discuss how it progressed afterwards.
I spent years and years eaten up with jealousy and resentment. I never realised my jealousy goes all the way back to when I was a child. It is with hindsight that I can see where I was jealous and the reasons for my jealousy. Recovery has helped be let go of the negative feelings. […]
My whole life I have had trust issues with women – is this a BPD tthing? Is it justified? Do other women really not like us?
A massive thank you to all my subscribers! I literally want to hug and squeeze you all! Big Love xxx
This is my first guest speaker – and she’s my bestie – Jo!!!! Jo does my Tweets for me – those of you who follow me on Twitter will be used to her tweets! I am so happy you guys are finally meeting her!
Sorry Guys – this video was supposed to be up on Friday but I’ve had problems with my laptop! All sorted now (thanks to my amazing Step-Dad!) xxx
My Family think I am a completely different person to who I used to be. But it can be hard on families to believe we truly have changed.
Sorry to do another porn video guys! In this video I discuss how porn can be really destructive to relationships.
I spent so many years feeling guilt and shame and feeling like I deserved love from nobody! Luckily I don’t feel like that today!
As a family member of an addict or alcoholic you can go through so much. What are your options? How can you help?
I believe there are different options for different addicts – are you dual diagnose or have you just been having a bit too much fun that has got out of hand? Or could you be an ‘addict of the hopeless variety’?
It is so hard whilst dealing with your mental health or addiction issues when you are a parent – so what should you do?
Do you think you are in a codependent relationship? Do you want to save someone else? Do you think you can’t live without someone else? This video briefly explains codependency.
My previous relationships were always so unhealthy and unstable. I suffered severe jealousy, rage, neediness and always felt I needed to be with someone as I was too scared to be on my own. Luckily my relationship today is very different.
In this video I talk about the various things that I need to manage in order to stay clean from drug addiction.
I did this video for anyone out there that has or is considering suicide. I had multiple suicide attempts over the years and it is only now that I am so grateful they were unsuccessful, as life has so much to offer me now. There was a time when I thought I would never escape […]
In this video Italk about how cocaine effected me pschologically. From collecting slugs in the garden to crawling around on my belly…
In this video I talk about my experience with Social Services and my feelings around it.
In this video I tell you about the first time I tried cocaine and how it made me feel.
In this video I talk about what it felt like when I started drinking.
In this video I talk about when I hit my rock bottom.
In this video I talk about just how miserable the finak years of my using were.
In this video I discuss what the first few years of using cocaine were like. The first years were very different to the final years.