Hi guys, I am so sorry I have been away for a few weeks, I have been poorly and only just starting to recover. I will put out a proper video on Friday – I just wanted to let you know I am still here. Lots of love xxx
hi my lovelies I am so so sorry I have been away for a few weeks and I really apologize because I like to be there for you guys and I feel like the past few weeks I just haven't I haven't posted on social media last video I did was the live video on Boxing Day and I'd planned to do a live video on New Year's Eve but I went home after Boxing Day and I came down with the sickness bug and I was really poorly that week little lady got on well she'd been unwell before Christmas then she won well after again and yeah it's dirty sweetie is out to do this home and then the new year came and I was just so unwell just a nasty nasty virus by literally just her have energy to do anything that you guilt at you and then just as always kinda gettin over it and my dad actually flew over from Ireland with my stepmom and they got my brother and they all came down here for a week which was amazing but I was having to cook bigger dinners because then these five adults Duke for four children still trying to keep the kids in a routine and by every night I was absolutely exhausted I mean in the week the kids were back at school was having to call on the other moms and say can you take the kids in just because I was so unwell hmmm I'm still a bit of a sniffling mess at the minute but I it's not flu I have my future her chatterbox but I mean I just feel like I'm burning up I have taken I've had a limp and I slept all day yesterday because I was adamant that I'm gonna do a video for you I Hey oh yeah yeah oh you stolen your this back have you stolen your soother back what was I gonna say ah yes I told you all my good news that I have got a book coming out it's not out yet huh yeah I'm still writing it and we are aiming for it to be out end of October November Oh this year which sounds like I've got a lot of time but actually I have to have the first draft the manuscript finished by March 31st yeah yeah and I kinda want to put absolutely everything in there all the tips that will help you things that I did personal stories so I've got a lot to do and again the past few weeks I have not been able to write I haven't even opened my laptop I've barely looked at my phone I've literally just wanted to lie there like and feel sorry for myself and at the same time having this horrid feeling in my tummy that I'm letting you guys down because that is the last thing I want to do I saw someone said has she abandoned Dawson no I would never abandon you I really really apologize I I spoke to Jaron who does my tweets for me today and I actually said to her I said I've been wanting to phone them and say can you just put a tweet out saying yeah I am here but I'm just really cool I just didn't have the energy to call her or text her so I kind of just shut off from the outside world get off stop laughing again this one walks now don't you you can walk now so she's getting absolutely everywhere you got little bumps on your head hey yes you do you do you can wave in a wave yeah good raving I'm gonna make sure I'm back this week this is just to let you know where I am I'm gonna make sure I'm back I'm gonna do a video on Friday for you and then I'm possibly gonna have to go down to one video a week until the end of March when this book is written because I've got so much to tell you and I want it good I want the book to be freaking amazing so you look and kind use it almost like you the BPD Bible like it'll have everything in there and I want you to read it think wow yeah I'll get a lot from this not um I read it once put it down and never pick it up again yeah so to do that I really need to kind of focus and why just write I've only done eleven thousand words yeah so I you don't have to beat me you get out of it so I hope Happy New Year by the hey Happy New Year I can't leave we like halfway through January already it's amazing where does the time go yes I'm possibly gonna go down to one video a week but I will let you all know on Friday I will do a proper video for you that will come out on Friday again I really really apologize because I should have somehow let you all know I'm here I haven't abandoned you and it is just I just had some nasty virus and I hope you will enjoy your week and I hope you forgive me and I'll be back on Friday I love you all guys hey
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