This week my washing machine broke, my car broke and my son threw a middle-of-the-night tantrum! I have a son that walks slightly slower than a snail and another son who thinks it’s fine to wrestle his way out of the pram as it’s moving! Rarrrrrr!
hi my love please and I'm going to give you a little overview on my week I've had quite a tough week it's all it's not being the worst that's me exaggerating right my washing machine broke down which was not big deal but I've got three kids I do at least a wash a day and the washings building up and I'm getting stressed so luckily I have a warranty on it so if someone comes out and says they need to order part so I wait another week and they come out and they tell me it's fixed and they go away and I'm super happy and I put my wash load on I come home and it's still broken so I wasn't happy i found the company and they said we've just got to go back through started again and rebook it all I was like well why they said your files closed I said well surely it should be closed if it's been fixed the guy hasn't fixed it so what it ain't closing it northcote entrust em and my lovely one we even got on the phone to them bless her and um they sent someone out the next day it was good um someone that knew what they were doing and they actually fixed it gay so that's problem solved my car broke and I've had the AAA out to them trying to fix it and it needs to go into the garage and the carriage is full until more basically a week I know I could probably send it somewhere else but I trust this garage they do not rip me off and they're really pleasant and so I'm not sending them to some garage where they will rip me off so again it's not a big deal with loads of people out there that don't have cars but I have three children like I keep saying and having three children I love my kids but life is a lot harder I can't just get up go out going to the school it sounds easy enough I have my little girl who's nearly seven I have my little boy who is five in two weeks and I have the baby who is nearly two who smart baby actually what I he sleeps till my baby who goes in his prime all good so my little girl good as gold what was quite fast perfect my four-year-old like a snail but slower when I turn around say hurry up he goes even slower and then I have the baby who no matter how tightly I put him in his pram he gets out I can be moving with the pram and he will wiggle and stand up and fall out so you'd think it'd be easier to just not bring the pram little walk but he won't hold my hand he will think it's okay to try and run into the road if I try and hold his hand he throws himself on the floor for more so what should be a 10 15 minute walk is over a half hour walk and answer yeah I've got to do that in a minute actually so this video had to speed up a bit and my four-year-old boy decided to wake up in the middle of last night and just throw a mega tantrum no reason he wasn't having a nightmare to scream in the place down kicking her bed I was saying please you're going to wake your brother he didn't care he woke his brother also did of course cause it and so he wake his brother I have to tell you I got so angry I wanted to throttle him obviously I didn't um but I'm very aware i guess so and really angry and I'm just like toy down and he just screaming and in the end I said listen and listen carefully if you carry on I'm going to cancel your birthday party do you know what he shall upon went to sleep that's all it took threatening his birthday party unit went to sleep after waking everyone up so I woke up in a bad mood and the other day I got some news about someone that I love dearly well I think what was the person I love dearly that gave me those actually and I don't want to go into it like basically there's someone I love and I can see they are struggling and I can see this because I have been there and I all of a sudden this past weekend I've really understood how my mum used to feel like so powerless because so many times she could see I was really unwell but I just wouldn't accept the help because I just didn't see it and I'm kind of going through that with someone I care about now and and it's really hard because I can see they're not well and I'm kind of saying look you need to get some help they don't see it they're telling me well if everyone else thinks I'm happy what they forget is actually everyone used to think I was happy when I was dying inside so telling me that people think they're happy that's not glower make me think they're happy because I can clearly see they're not and its really affected me because I really love this person they mean the world to me and and I just know they're struggling and it's like I said it's really hard accepting that actually I'm powerless over the what this person does all I can do is my best and try and guide them and hope that arm they'll be okay but it has affected me it's brought up a lot of things in me and I said on friday i'm using my dbt skills which i really am I've been using like the stress tolerance distracting a lot my house is spotless because I distracted with housework so much I have this week I've also like compared myself to others because here I am moaning that I don't have a car and my washing machines broke there's people dying in the world so I have been doing that as well I yesterday I took my three little ones to the beach on my own as you know what before I did I never realized how feared up I works I was like just freaking out that I was going on my own I think how am I gonna manage one of them is gonna run into the sea and drown one order and I had all this like catastrophizing going on and I even actually said come on guys we go to the park and said they're like Nevo beach because the weather so beautiful and I kind of thought you know why I've just got to take them so I felt the fear and did it anyway and I had an amazing time we all sat on a big blanket on the sand we ran down to the sea together got lots of beautiful photos of them and we got ice cream on the way back and then yeah overall it was amazing and on the way back all the kids say mommy we just had the best day we had the best day and it was so nice and but I am really wear that I'm feared up about a lot of things still even now and I get anxious about anything new if I go somewhere with like the local park or take them there all the time so that's not a problem for me because I kind I just do it without thinking but the beach because it's being cold we haven't been there and so although something feels like I'm doing something new and its really really freaked me out but do you know what like when I moved here and like well I decided to relocate here I live two hours of red before and I made the decision to reload and it was a hard decision to make because I was moving away from my mom and I really really kind of rely on my mom for a lot she's like just her and my stepdad they're just amazing and they've they've like giving me so much support but I was also moving away from my ex-husband which yes fine he's my ex and you think oh well that's what's the problem but he's the dash to my two older children and also where I was taking them away and I didn't want to really fit them but now I mean my children are so happy they tell me how lucky they are to live here all the time we like a five minute walk from the beach and I just love it it's the best decision I ever made the kids are really happy in school they both go to a brilliant of school the little one goes to an amazing nursery and yeah is the best choice I made but I notice it when things like the washing machine in the corn that it's not like i can just pop rousey mum help and it's not like i can just call on anyone i mean i'll have lots of lovely friends but who's going to what three children during this Pitman lot on somebody hair but yeah I kind of moved down here thinking and how amazing would it be for my children to grow up by the beach because for me going to the seaside was like once in the summer holidays it was different when I used to go over to island and stay with my dad and my stepmom I'm a Nana and granddad and I used to go to the beach all the time I was really lucky but when I was over here we didn't live near the beach so it was like a special day out kind of occasion and I think how amazing for my kids I really do have to make the most of it but I catastrophize like I said and everything can seem so scary when it's new but i'm really glad i took them because we did we had the best day so my emotions this week have kind of been like this have I been sad yeah I've cried this week I've been so angry especially last night this week and seriously anxious before I went to the beach this week but I am really I always try and put as many skills I have into practice as possible and it really really helps me really so yeah that's my catch up for this week guys but I hope you all well and you can find me on Twitter and feel free to tweet me or comment in my comment section or I'm on facebook and I'm on an Instagram as well on Instagram I'm recovery mom mo-om oh hi guys take care laughs a
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