Why are RELATIONSHIPS our downfall?!

Today I discuss how even when everything in our life seems to be ok, when it comes to relationships they can cause havoc in the other areas of our life.   Amazon.com – https://www.amazon.com/Big-Book-Borderline-Personality-Disorder/dp/1936268612/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1542812156&sr=8-1&keywords=the+big+book+on+borderline+personality+disorder Amazon Canada – https://www.amazon.ca/Big-Book-Borderline-Personality-Disorder/dp/1936268612/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1542812221&sr=8-1&keywords=The+Big+Book+on+Borderline+Personality+Disorder Amazon UK – https://www.amazon.co.uk/Big-Book-Borderline-Personality-Disorder/dp/1936268612/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1542812298&sr=8-1&keywords=the+big+book+on+borderline+personality+disorder

Fighting the ageing process!

Today I talk about how getting older sucks! I recently read a magazine article about Katie Price AKA Jordan and I couldn’t help but feel sorry for her. She is desperately trying to hold on to her sex symbol status and won’t accept that she is getting older. We ALL have to age and when […]

Financial Implications & Guilt

e often act impulsively – whether its drink, drugs, binge eating, shopping or gambling. We partake in these things in order to make ourselves feel better – but inevitably we always feel worse. What should we do about this?

Overcoming Obsession!

Today I give a couple of tips that can help with obsession. The_permanent_marker – Christo Botes – the man that is doing my tattoo tommorrow! Check out his instagram!

Changing Our Mind/Quick Results!

Last time I discussed how we can change our mind regarding dreams of the future, jobs, education etc. Today I discuss how we can change our mind multiple times in a day. I also discuss how not getting immediate results can also lead us to give up on things.

The Big Book On Borderline Personality Disorder

Today I give an update on how close my book is to release date. I also give a list of the chapter titles so you have a better idea of what is included in the book. Amazon.com – https://www.amazon.com/Big-Book-Borderline-Personality-Disorder Amazon Canada – https://www.amazon.ca/Big-Book-Borderline-Personality-Disorder Amazon UK – https://www.amazon.co.uk/Big-Book-Borderline-Personality-Disorder Amazon Australia – https://www.amazon.com.au/Big-Book-Borderline-Personality-Disorder

I’ve Had An Idea… (Livestream)

I’m considering doing a series of vids on spirituality – this could include topics such as reincarnation, meditation, visioning, journaling. The wonderful thing about spirituality is you choose your own path – there is no right or wrong. You do not even have to consider yourself spiritual to benefit from spiritual practices such as mindfulness […]

Discussing Past Problems

I had an opportunity today to chat with my daughters class teacher and give him any information that helps him gain a better understanding of my daughter. It felt really freeing to be honest…I spent so many years being dishonest and today I don’t need to be. Opening up with someone can be really enpowering.

A Medication WARNING!

More and more of us are looking at our diets and trying to live a healthier life – a variety of fruit maybe one thing we try to include daily. But…did you know that the innocent looking grapefruit actually has hidden dangers – one of them being that it interacts with certain medications! Today I […]

My Relationship With My Ex

I got asked to discuss how my relationship with my ex-husband was and is today. Do we co-parent well or are there still issues today? Our relationship was intense and unstable from the beginning and eventually we divorced. I used cocaine throughout our marriage and he hated me using drugs.¬†¬† Today myself and my ex-husband […]

Symptoms of BPD Vs Normal feelings

Today I discuss how we tell the difference between being rightfully upset over something or whether we are just being overly sensitive. Do we isolate because we are generally busy or are we isolating on purpose? What about when we have a partner who constantly blames our BPD for our symptoms?

BPD, Dissociation and Psychotic Episodes

Do people with BPD suffer with forms of psychosis? Today I discuss this aswell as Dissociation. A BPD trait is feeling paranoid and/or out of touch with reality. Dissociation is our brains way of protecting us from emotional pain. It is often formed in childhood due to trauma…but in adulthood it only causes us to […]

BPD – “Who am I?!”

Today I discuss the BPD trait Unclear or Unstable self-image. Many of us struggle with this, to the point where we don’t know who we are. We wear a ‘mask’ and adapt to our surroundings, desperately trying to fit in, but to the point where it is detrimental to ourselves. Below is the link so […]

Is This A Borderline Thing?

I have always wanted to know the ending to films – the ending to books etc. Only then can I relax and enjoy what I’m watching/reading. Also – I absolutely can NOT watch anything sad – not even cartoons! I am really sorry guys but I repeat the story of the hippogriff in this video […]

BPD and Sexual Promiscuity

An impulsive reckless behaviour that we may exhibit might be sleeping with strangers. We want to feel loved and secure and often mistakenly think sleeping with someone is the answer to that – which is never is. In fact it more often than not makes us feel so much worse.

BPD, Clinginess and Jealousy

With BPD we have a fear of abandonement, we have low self esteem – and we have intense emotions – it’s no wonder we start feeling jealous and then acting on it. We really do need to learn to rationalise things though because our jealousy and clinginess often pushes those we love away.


What is the difference between a low mood and depression? How does depression appear outwardly. I forgot to mention in the video that sometimes .I would literally feel nothing when I was depressed – I was numb inside. ¬†Often ¬†when we are depressed we do not even know we are depressed. ¬†If you think you […]

Jealous Of Everyone

I spent years and years eaten up with jealousy and resentment. I never realised my jealousy goes all the way back to when I was a child. ¬†It is with hindsight that I can see where ¬†I was jealous and the reasons for my jealousy. ¬†Recovery has helped be let go of the negative feelings. […]

BPD, My Kids and Me

I received a comment the other day from a lady who had been really hurt by her BPD mother. ¬†Whilst I understand her hurt and anger I have to disagree that all people with BPD are the same. ¬†I discuss my own children in this video and why I don’t believe I minimize things in […]


I did this video for anyone out there that has or is considering suicide. ¬†I had multiple suicide attempts over the years and it is only now that I am so grateful they were unsuccessful, as life has so much to offer me now. ¬†There was a time when I thought I would never escape […]