Today we have a video guest – it is Chris from The Rewired Soul. Chris is in recovery from his mental health and addiction and today he tells us his story. Chris’s channel is all about ‘Talk about the problem but FOCUS on the solution’. Today he educates others on these topics and shows people how they too can recover.
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hi guys today I have a very special guest for you his name is Chris and his channel is the rewired soul Chris literally has so much energy you have to check out his channel it's growing really fast fast rate he's absolutely smashing it right now he himself has experienced addiction problems with his mental health and he does videos on this and we're very similar in the fact that we talk about the problem and we focus on the solution and you have to subscribe to his channel I really hope you guys enjoy this video over to Chris what is up everybody my name is Chris and I am from the mental health YouTube channel the rewired soul and I want to send a huge huge huge thank you to Serena for having me as a guest on her beautiful channel recovery mom but before I get started and talking a little bit about me I want to give a big big big apology to Serina so for those of you who don't know Serena actually came over to my channel a few weeks ago she did a guest video it was phenomenal you should check it out it talked a lot about like avoiding self-harm behaviors and like self-harm recovery and things like that and it was phenomenal and I was like yeah I'll do a video for your channel and I've been scatterbrained and busy and just being a terrible terrible friend to Serena so this video is very late so I apologize Serena and hopefully I can make it up to you with this video and maybe some other stuff in the future anyways let's get going so yeah I guess I'll just introduce myself and explain a little bit about my history so in recovery I celebrated six years clean and sober on June 23rd of this year so I actually got sober on my birthday when I was 27 years old so I want to share a little bit about my history with addiction as well as symptoms of borderline personality disorder whenever I talk about symptoms of BPD that I can relate to I want to make it very clear I have never officially diagnosed but I've talked to a psychiatrist and some other people like that the consensus is I may have had a lot of the symptoms but through my mental health growth and things like that I've managed to overcome a lot of those symptoms so I just want to make that clear as I go throughout my story so basically my story starts out with I was a son of an alcoholic mom and she now has about 13 years clean it'll be in November but she didn't get sober until I was 20 years old and because of this you know a lot of people who struggle with symptoms of BP be exempt from childhood right a lot of this emotional dysregulation and this I love you I hate you and you know all sorts of stuff like it stems from childhood and me having alcohol mom it really screwed me up as a kid and I ended up hating her for it I wouldn't talk to her for years at a time and I hated visiting her and all sorts of stuff because my mom was an alcoholic I swore to myself that I was never going to you substances but throughout my entire childhood and even my teenage years and stuff like I just felt intense emotions where everybody else's school you know they might get a little sad I was like immensely depressed when people get nervous I would have like anxiety attacks I didn't just like somebody I love them just these extreme emotions you know what I mean so for me I didn't start drinking or using until the end of my senior year in high school after a breakup a ton of emotions were just overwhelming me from anger to depression to anxiety and I just didn't want to feel anything so I turned alcohol I heard alcohol helps get it rid of everything that you're feeling so I'm like alright I'm gonna try it the moment I tried it and I got drunk that first time I was like this this is the thing I've needed in my life it got rid of all of these things that were going on in my head and from then I was just hooked like throughout that summer I didn't just go hang out a party so I was like where's the booze like where's the hard stuff I need to get messed up and you know a lot of this was masked through my college years like everybody's drinking and partying and stuff like that but it really escalated as I started working and I never just had the tools to manage life so my drinking got worse and I started losing job after job after job and lack this self-awareness to see that this was because of my drinking it was you know you know forget my boss you know I didn't like this job anyways and all sorts of stuff and you know my relationships I was going from relationship to relationship and I didn't understand why they weren't working well I did you know it was all the other person's fault but I had a lot of you know self-sabotaging behaviors you know I I would push people away when they got too close I was also very needy and all sorts of stuff and it was destroying the relationships I got into and eventually you know my girlfriend got pregnant and we had my son and you know I thought that was going to stop my drinking and using but all that did was it made me switch from alcohol to prescription opiates and I was still just never managing my emotions in a healthy way so I was turning to the pills and it didn't take long for me to start mixing the pills with the alcohol and life just got worse I started to lose everything I lost the girlfriend I wasn't allowed to see my son I was losing jobs I was having health issues and all sorts of stuff and I always said I tried you know to get better but I never tried anything all I did was try to stop using but I kept relapsing over and over and over again my solution started to come when I found 12-step programs that's why I love Serena and her story and this book that she has coming out the big book of borderline personality disorder I cannot wait to read it and hopefully you pre-ordered it because I think it's gonna be phenomenal but anyways I got introduced to 12-step programs and that's when I really started to work on myself you know I got a lot of tough love from people and people who helped me stop playing the victim all the time you know although I was the son of an alcoholic mom and I had such a troubling childhood I had to start taking responsibility like now that I was a father it was no longer an excuse to live the way that I was living you know what I mean so you know 12-step programs helped me out a lot but it didn't really give me anything to help manage my emotions on a day-to-day basis as often as I needed so in this video I really want to talk to you about the biggest tool that I use to help manage my emotions because they still they still want to come up and flare up you know what I mean and the best tool that I found meditation I specifically practice a meditation called mindfulness and I like because it's very informal right now I could be mindfully communicating with you right now I can be mindfully feeling my feet on the ground like I can mindful listen to the sounds on the street or whatever it is and it helps bring me back into the moment and I can embrace my experience rather than trying to run away from it because if you're like me we're trying to alter the way that we feel constantly sometimes it's with substance abuse sometimes it's with risky behavior sometimes it's with self-harm sometimes it's with relationships like we're just trying to alter the way that we feel and what meditation has done I'm also a big neuroscience nerd meditation were wise your brain do not try to run and escape those feelings and that's helped me out so much like as a youtuber you know I read comments I can get defensive I can feel these emotions but I'm able to sit back and read these things mindful me mindfully and ask myself like why am I feeling this way you know what I mean what's my experience right now and I can start grounding myself mindfulness is the core practice of the best therapy for BPD which is dialectical behavioral therapy so I highly suggest like you start educating yourself in researching dialectical behavioral therapy if you have a therapist you have dialectical behavioral therapy and mindfulness there's some great books out there and stuff like that if you can't afford therapy but there's so much stuff you can begin working on yourself like me I just have meditation apps on my phone I read a lot of books and all that kind of stuff but it helps me on a day-to-day basis regulate my emotions and calm down all the craziness going on up here anyways that's all I got for you if you want to check out my channel it's all about mental health I talk about addiction and depression and anxiety and BPD and trauma and all sorts of stuff go check it out it's right there on that sign the rewired soul I'm sure so it shield link it down in that description and stuff like that but again before I leave I apologize Serena I apologize for being so late with this video I love you I love everything that you do and I cannot wait for your book thank you everybody for watching if you somehow stumbled across this video and you are not subscribed to where every mom yet hit that subscribe button and ring the notification bell alright but anyways thanks for listening to me I'll see you next time thank you so much Chris and don't worry I know what it's like life gets busy and your channel is growing so quickly right now I know how busy you are I really appreciate you doing this video for my channel guys do go and check Chris's channel out it's the rewired so he's put linking I will put a link in down below that you can click on and go to Chris is really active from social media right now I know I'm rubbish on it but yeah do do check him out because there's a lot of valuable information and he does a lot of videos on like current affairs things are going on right now and he links it to addiction and mental health so it's really fantastic content so do check it out guys I'll be back in the week thank you so much for watching I love your loads
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