Do people with BPD suffer with forms of psychosis? Today I discuss this aswell as Dissociation. A BPD trait is feeling paranoid and/or out of touch with reality. Dissociation is our brains way of protecting us from emotional pain. It is often formed in childhood due to trauma…but in adulthood it only causes us to continue to hold on to painful events as we do not deal with them head on. We can also put ourselves in dangerous situations when we are dissociating.
hi i'm lovelyz happy Friday today I'm going makeup free someone put in the comments I think my last video about women and their insecurities and maybe I should consider doing a video makeup free and I thought ok I will do that I am I'm not being 100% honest I did put some tinted moisturizer on this morning but other than that you can see nothing so I feel a bit naked now I like been through times in my life or I wouldn't leave the house because like I was so depressed and I wouldn't wear any makeup but then I wasn't leaving the house other times I literally could not go to my local corner shop without wearing makeup today I'm not like that I often do the school run like this am i insecure do you know what yeah I have my insecurities I think most of us do but I've got to a point where I'm more comfortable in my own skin I don't worry so much about what people think about a but yeah I still have insecurities I will probably be back to wearing makeup next week the thing is I enjoy the process of putting makeup on I like the way how you can look one way and they look something completely different and it's kind of like painting or doing art I just find it really thin of beauty I listen to my music and it's just really fun experience but today I'm going makeup please accept the twin-tip little tinted moisturizer today I'm doing two video requests one from Morticia Addams hello I'm a teacher who asked me to talk about dissociation and Kristy Lee didn't actually request a video but I noticed she asked in the comments about does anyone suffer psychosis and have BPD so I thought I would touch on that because it kind of links him with dissociation so I have like personal experience with dissociation I've talked to you before when I was like well how old seven or eight I was young I was in primary school and I dissociated for the first time and for me I kind of felt like I stepped out my body and I was watching myself but it wasn't me it was really bizarre and there are lots of different ways that we can dissociate it's not just one way that's how we do it so I will discuss that sometimes we can feel like we have zoned out almost like a daydream like we're in a dream but we've kind of stepped away from it we're in a dream but you know like if you're in a daydream maybe yourself at this looking out and you're daydreaming so it feels like that but it's while you're doing stuff when you could be talking to someone but you feel like you've zoned out from the situation so it is quite bizarre there are like I said different ways of dissociating which I will discuss now but pretty much all of them we disconnect with disconnecting from ourselves we are disconnecting from our thoughts from our feelings the way we behave from our identity disconnect from our memories so D personalization is the one that I used to have and that is where I felt like I stepped out my body and I was looking at myself I was kind of looking on but it it wasn't me I was over over here so that's depersonalization is one of them we also have D realization and that is different where we at we kind of detach from the world around us people places things and I've had that before as well where us I could be with a group of people and then all of sudden kind of feel like I was separate from them even though I was being included and everything I just felt again kind of like I was stepping out myself but I felt so detached from everyone it just out of reality and that's the trade my sleeve listed in the DSM is like we can have intrusive thoughts paranoia out of touch with reality and that's exactly it it just things just didn't feel real to me even though they were happening another one is amnesia and with amnesia it's basically we forget periods of time now it might be we just forgot the few minutes in our day or it could be we forgot the past week it could be we forgot huge chunks of like our life maybe in childhood there's just layers that we can't remember but I still got a lot of my childhood I just do not remember that's all and I try and think but it's just like literally there's nothing there just absolutely nothing I just do not remember I say the thing is we can forget okay so like just say we forgot what we did this morning even though we knew we were awake we were there we were present but it's like our mind has just kind of blocked it and we can't remember it even though it's just happened so that's another form of disability we have identity confusion and this is where we don't who we are basically we're confused about our identity now it does differ from the trait because we have VPD trait which is unclear or unstable self-image and that is who are we not knowing our real identity I suppose this the difference is with this with dissociating is we thought we kind of knew who we were one minute and then we've forgotten we don't know who we are now but then we'll go back to the inn okay and and they might happen again and it's like yeah so as opposed to just questioning Who am I we're questioning why but in a different way I might making any sense please tell me you're making some sense um yeah so I would say it's the more to do with we think we know who we are and then we don't and then we do in the midday that we have identity alteration and this is different because it's basically what it says we alter our identity we become someone else we might move to a different town we start behaving completely differently dressing completely differently talking completely differently and when we're in this state we completely forget we have all our memories of who we just were and with someone completely else but that's someone completely different and then we can go back and we don't remember doing that and it's out of our control it's it's different to how we can be like a chameleon and to fit in it's completely different to that it's we just all of a sudden become someone else the thing with dissociating is it's our brain protecting us from harm from pain so if it's a child we suffered some kind of trauma or we went through a really difficult time and when you were young you're very helpless and you like rely on your caregivers and so if you're being called some kind of herb there's no way of you escaping that so our brain does the next best thing and emotionally detaches us so we're basically emotionally numbed so we can get through that difficult time as pain-free as possible the problem is later on in life whenever some kind of pain or her comes our that's what our brain does it cuts us off it emotionally NARMS us to protect us the thing with there is if we keep dissociating every time something painful happens in our life we're actually holding on to the pain because we are not dealing with it we're not facing it head-on and learning how to successfully cope with this distress we just becoming emotionally numb which seems to service purpose of its purpose but then we keep doing it when we dissociate it's not actually a nice feeling it's not like walking away with the batteries it feels really weird and we can put ourselves in really really dangerous situations when we do it we might just completely mean a daze and go for a walk in a dangerous alleyway he'd like do you know we're just we're not thinking we're not there with reality of the situation and that's a dangerous place to be there are many of us that the dissociating become so bad that was so desperate to feel that we might turn to self-harm just to try and make ourselves physically feel something to try and bring us back to reality so it is a trait that we definitely need to learn to become and unfortunately one of the ways we do that we have to learn how to feel the pain and only when we do that can we then learn to deal with it learn to recover from it and stop dissociating so Christi Lee asked me amp not me you guys does anyone have episodes of psychosis now I have suffered with this as well to different extents there was one time that was so bad I was like I'd be at home and I'd think I could hear people smashing my door down and I would freak out like it's that fight flight or freeze and I would freeze I'll just be frozen they're thinking someone's coming in to murder my family and it all sounded and it was so real but obviously it wasn't real so I've had it when it was like that more recently I it's like to a lesser extent but just as bad mentally really because I it's at times of stress when I'm stressed and I start thinking I'm seeing spiders everywhere and I'm like and I become really jumpy and it gets to the point that when I go to bed I have to lift the duvet upper half to lift the pillows up I have to look under the bed I have to go into the kids room to check this no spiders I have to go downstairs to check there's no spiders but the time I've got up my mind is telling me well you've been down stairs maybe a spiders going in your bed so I'm back checking onto my bed and it's like really all-consuming and it's horrible because then I'm lying in bed thinking oh my god what is this why do what if I feel it on my leg and then I'm thinking I'm feeling it now for me I well I take antidepressants but I also take antipsychotics and I was mainly put on them not really for any kind of psychosis but for the intrusive thoughts I my family were going to be murdered my children are going to die my partner is Gino me like and it was constant constant constant and the thoughts were so all-consuming that I just couldn't live my life day to day and I took him to psychotics and he called and the force went the intrusive thoughts back so at times of stress I get like spiders and so I spoke to my psychologist this was about how long ago a year maybe you're not everywhere I'm like checking the spiders everywhere and so they just upped the dose and that did the trick for me but like I've been I've done a little bit of research like reading about it and whereas antipsychotics can work with someone with them like disorders such as schizophrenia it doesn't necessarily work with people with BPD and I also learn that actually it's quite common like people with BPD having psyche by a psychotic episode is between 20 and 50 percent so it's certainly not uncommon we must also remember where the term borderline first came from it was called borderline because we bordered but so they bleed on the edge of neurosis and psychosis like said one of the traits is being out of touch with reality and having a psychotic episode it's certainly being out of touch with reality the difference is when like someone's from a diagnose whether you have a komova disorder whether it's an actual psychotic disorder such as schizophrenia or whether it's a part of the VPD things they will consider are the frequency helped and is it happening what was bringing on is it stress like induced the frequency the duration of it how long it's going on for but it sounds like there's loads more research needed to be done because written with regards to psychosis and BPD but from what I've read is definitely part of definitely part of so many people with BPD have had some kind of form of psychotic episode so I'm gonna leave that there today my little boy goes into school today a three year old I mean he'll be four next week he goes for his the first day well he's only going in for an hour to the school and I'm like oh I'm gonna collect him from nursery and we're going to school when he's just still so little so I'm gonna be doing that now at the moment I'm currently working on a webinar that will be coming out soon anyone that has signed up for alerts on unhooked mediacom when you go to the big book of borderline personality disorder you can get notified an alerts about the author while I'm doing da da da da so if you have signed our you should receive an email when the webinar is going to be if you haven't signed up please sign up and I hope you all have a wonderful weekend love you
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