Impulsive Reckless Behaviour is a trait of BPD. When we think of this we think of drink, drugs, sex etc. This is not the only way it manifests though.
hi my lovelies today I'm going to do a video request but before I do I've got to mention this dzifa's ball this is the result of my daughter doing Platts in my hair as I read her a bedtime story and then I forget to take the Pats out go to sleep I wake up stutter right today I'm doing video requests from Mr hi Emma and and she asked her impulsivity and how it manifests in bored lines because we know one of the traits of having BPD M is impulsive reckless behavior but it doesn't always have to be the kind of reckless behavior that we automatically think of when we think of impulsive reckless behavior we think of just going out I mean sex with strangers going out gambling going out doing those drugs drink driving and just get really drunk and and yes these are obviously reckless um but it does manifest itself in other ways for me I can just be sat at home flipping through a magazine and then to see like a pair of shoes say I think I want I like and I literally feel like I have to have them then and there I can wait even if I don't have money I somehow find a way of having those shoes and even if it means I think I'll do you know what I'll just pay the bills late and I must point out that I don't do this now I can still it still comes up in me for example the other day I saw something that I liked in the short like but for some reason like I literally just walk around the shops in a complete daze thinking I want this and then putting it back on this and then putting it back because something in my head nowadays kinda says do you need it really do you need it how are you going to feel off that and half that's the thing how will I feel after because while I sit in looking at a magazine I let their shoes and I'm feeling great and I really really want them and I go to the shopper I'm feeling good and I'm handing over my card and I'm buying the shoes and then I get home and I feel guilty that I spent my last bit of money on shoes I decide actually I don't even really like those shoes I should have got different ones question I've got any and I get really low and depressed afterwards and this always happens now it doesn't like it for me it doesn't have to just be closed it could be like for example like oh I like stationery that sounds really weird but I love pens and paper and - stationery and I know it is weird but err it is and I've like been that way for years and years like I'm in my element in the stationery department in a shop like what pens can I get I'll get some felt tips and I'll get a new notepad and I get all excited and I go home and if say the kids drew because if they found my pen and paper they would use it without asking and if they drew in my new book I'd feel like I don't want that book now it's been ruined because I want it new and even if I'm the first one I draw in here and buy and then a few days later I just want a new one it doesn't satisfy me my book doesn't no longer satisfy me and so yeah like for my videos obviously I have packed the paper so I can write notes and write requests down and ideas and stuff and I could be thinking I've got a whole new idea what I need you book further they're going get on I won't do a video okay and something has to stop me like hang on you've got the kids most of the time you only get small amount of time to do a video if you go to the shop by the time you get back is picking up time it's the school run and then you won't do a video and then you'll feel all from tomorrow and ruddy buddy Mar and then once I've done that and I've stopped myself because I've realized this is not going to be good this will not end well you're just going out to buy a book it will not end well because I wouldn't just buy the book I would get the book and I would buy new pens and Sharpie pens and pencils like stuff I don't need and so I'd come back and I'd have all this stuff but the next day I wouldn't even want it'd be pointless but I am aware of that and that's why I'd say to anyone is I know you're excited about whatever you want to act impulsively on I mean it it might not be shopping I can be like to get an idea in my head and think oh my god we should have a barbeque at the weekend only got this brilliant I've got a phone my partner even though he said he's in a meeting or something I'm phoning and texting like he's at work and I'm like we've got have a barbecue did it at her and I start planning it and getting overly excited and like go on a complete high and without having a party you and I can't just hold back like if he has done a night shift and he's asleep the next day but all of a sudden I have this idea of something maybe that we should get the house I can be like I've got to wake him and tell him like I don't think he's been up all night maybe I should let him sleep I'm like I'm so impulsive everything has to be done now but what I've found is if I can stop myself after only a short amount of time maybe our that feeling of active in acting impulsively goes he doesn't stay with me after an hour I'm not still official I'm gonna get up often actually well not so much now but often I would then change and thankfully I'll get this instead or I'll do this instead and I'll still want to act impulsively but do something completely different and completely forgotten what I initially wanted to do so if you are someone that acts impulsively whether it's the really reckless behavior I mean even the shopping buying the stationery it's still reckless because it's spending money that doesn't need to be spent and but no matter what it is if you can just stop yourself from doing it don't like say like I'm not doing it this is why I used to do it because if I said I'm not doing it and I'll be like oh I've got to do it I've got to do it but if you say right I'm not going to do it for the next five minutes that's not as scary and then after that I'm not ready for the next 10 minutes or if you can't do ten five minutes if you can't even do five for one minute and undo it and distract yourself and try and do something different and the only time my impulsivity is good it's when all that I wake up I think oh oh my god I want to spring cleaning the whole house and I just go off on one and but what I find is I could start cleaning then I think I need new dusters I need new like whatever wipes or whatever and then I get it my head I've got to go to the shop and get all this new stuff to do my cleaning because that's another thing I can get addicted to not just stationary I like different cleaning products like it's really sad but I've just got everything I love trying new things new window cleaners and stuff so um yeah then I have to stop myself because I could go out and get all that stuff and the other time I come back I'm not in the mood to clean so I have to stop myself but it is good when I wake up I'm like I've got to clean the house and I've got to do it now because then I have nice clean house and yeah I'm going to leave that video there but like I said with you I think it's distraction and kind of just taking it slowly so I'm not going to do it for a minute I'm not going to it for whatever if you have to do 10 seconds to start with do that and and that kind of tip can be used for drinking drugs camp for anything it's not necessarily going to work straight away and thought I would try it because definitely by putting a little time on it like I'm not going to do it for a minute that's that's quite achievable and then you do another minute and another minute and finishing that feeling passes and you don't act impulsively basic right my lovelies I'm going to go so I love you all loads and have a wonderful week
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