I did this video for anyone out there that has or is considering suicide. I had multiple suicide attempts over the years and it is only now that I am so grateful they were unsuccessful, as life has so much to offer me now. There was a time when I thought I would never escape the emotional hell that I was in on a day to day basis. But I did escape it and now I live a happy and peaceful life and can enjoy all the little things that I once couldn’t enjoy.
hi guys today I am going to do a video and I'm not very nice subject um I'm going to talk about suicide or it's a horrid subject to talk about but I think it's really important because people out there are that desperate and I know there have been times I've been that desperate that I have attempted suicide either by suffocating myself or overdosing on tablets i also have friends that have had loved ones commit suicide I've been successful in their suicide luckily for me my attempts were just attempts um and I was never successful because life is amazing today like I still struggle from time to time don't get me wrong um but I remember back when I used to attempt suicide regularly that I felt so low and so desperate that I just didn't want to be here anymore I was fed up of waking up every day with that feeling inside and I felt helpless and I didn't see any light at the end of the tunnel and I didn't think life would ever change I thought that was it and it was such a struggle just to wake up every day and there are times I just I just felt like I had enough I wanted to do this video because I'm there are people out there that might be still feeling it just how i felt and i kinda wanted to do the video for them and tell them my experience because like I said my attempts were unsuccessful and life is completely different today I wake up and I want to get out bed and I want to see my children's faces I haven't got that horrid feeling inside where I can't face people I'm happy today not all the time sometimes I want to smush the place up but overall I'm content and I just have calm something I never had I just I remember how desperate I used to feel and if you are out there and you're feeling like that please let me tell you it won't always be like that I know you might think of giving up but sometimes will often when you feel like that chances are you've hit your rock bottom and you've had enough the good thing about hitting rock bottom is you've got nowhere else to fall so you can give up but actually if you fight their only way is up now and recovery isn't just handed to you you've got put in some work but it is so worth it it's a process as well you're not going to just wake up the next day and be fine but trust me there is light at the end of the tunnel and do have faith because i'm so happy that my attempts were unsuccessful and i am here today and i can enjoy my little children's faces and I have wonderful relationships with my friends and my partner and I didn't ever think life could be like this but it is and it can be for you too but now is the time to start fighting and not give up because like I said I've got friends that lost loved ones to suicide and they're just left with so many questions like so many unanswered questions and it just leaves devastation in behind death it life can be hard but it won't always be like that and if you just hang on and you get through this you could help others and share your experience with them and show them that life can be all right life can actually be bloody good I mean I don't dance around like this all the time I'm all happy but like I said I've got that peace and calm inside me now where I want to go our bed and I want to enjoy life we get one life and we can make the most out of it we can have the most amazing time and you can too if you're out there and you're really really struggling there are services out there that can help you go to your doctor see if you can get under mental health team sometimes you do have to push for these things and I remember one time I found a mental health team crying saying I just want to die and they said they'd phone me back someone would phone and I got a phone call a week later saying all you called I was like that was a week ago I could be dead by now but I'm spitting everywhere but what I try and remember these doctors these nurses whoever takes the call their human as well and they can make mistakes and that's not oh that wasn't a reason for me to go do you know what they messed up so I'm giving up because you know what this is my life this is your life and it can be whatever you want it to be and it won't always be a struggle but you do have to just hang on in there and I guarantee you it'll be worth it when you come out the other side love you all guys bye
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