Today I have been in a mad rush as I decided to decorate the house as a surprise for the kids when they got home! Therefore I’m filming whilst decorating the Christmas Tree! I have spent the past week having a major declutter and had a problem when I struggled to give away a teddy – in case I hurt it’s feelings!
hi guys today's video is a bit different because I've got tech the kids in an hour and a half I want to decorate for Christmas as a surprise for them so I need to get that done and you know like tinsel gets everywhere and so I just need to whoo vacuum everywhere I also need to get dinner done before I collect them so it's ready because I put one of the mums coming over she's going out for works do and I'm doing her makeup for her so it's like a bit manic so I'm gonna decorate my tree while I do my video my Harry Potter I like that it is pretty so if this week I have I've had a massive like declutter and so today I'm gonna kinda talk about that because it's really cleansing it makes you feel really good but I really became aware of something and I don't know if it's my I don't know if it's the borderline personality disorder but I seem to put like sentimental value on everything not just that okay let give you an idea of who I mean so okay first of all the sentimental value like all my kids birthday cards all their Christmas cards I have kept over the years I have four children that's a lot of cards like I had just piles and piles of cards and I was like are they ever going to like look back and want to look at their old cards because I don't think they are and they're taking up room in my cupboard and you know what guys I've got to the point that I just feel like I've got so much stuff like there's just stuff everywhere and not even like stuff of value it's not stuff I use it's just stuff I put a sentimental value on and then I don't want to throw it out so I was like okay I've got to be like really ruthless and so I went through all their birthday cards like I kept the ones that like congratulations you've just had a baby girl or boy I kept stuff like that but all the ones for ages like two three four five they have gone and I feel so much better for it just put it all in the recycling so oh I hope none of you have OCD who are watching me do this because don't be a bit of a mishmash right oh that's okay yeah so okay so I went into the boys room I did the boys room first because I'm really where Christmas is coming they end up getting like so much stuff and like I said I'm at the point of like oh my god like every cupboard is full every it's just driving me nuts so I was like oh my god Chris miss is coming they're gonna have more stuff now they get stuff like that they don't even use that are from two Christmases ago games that are still in the wrapper that haven't even been opened and played with so I was just like not doing it gonna have a real clear out declutter everywhere so I started on my cupboard down here clearing through staff went up to the boys room gave loads of stuff to charity my daughter collects I don't know if they have them we wherever you are but T Y toys they're little cute Teddy's oh hang on I mean this one's been drawn on but you know these but you can get the little ones my daughter collected them for years never played with them just the mantra her pets and they are all like new I gave them all to the nursery because um like my daughter goes to nursery so I know she'll have loads of fun Lottie will get to play with it there and it will get so much useful the other kids so it was really like a nice feeling that these toys that actually been played with as opposed to being stored under my daughter's bed so I was cleaning the boys room and what's happened there does that working still I think so so I couldn't leave the boys room out and then there was like they have soft toys teddies they don't play with again and I was like I'm getting rid I'm getting rid I'm getting rid and I came across a little what is happening here I came across this little teddy like it was only like this big and old and battered and I never bought it I'll tell you the story behind it when I lived in my old flat when I like came downstairs in the hallway like the communal hallway I found this old battered teddy on the floor and I thought okay I'm gonna put it up here on the side where everyone's post like may okay so whoever owns it can reclaim it and it was there one week and it was there two weeks and three weeks no one came and got this little teddy so this is what I mean I don't know if this is the BPD but I started feeling really bad for the teddy like it like I was like that poor little thing no one wants it like it have feelings and um one day I was just like I couldn't bear it I was like this poor teddy it's got no home it's just left out there in the cold it must be freezing and I adopted it so I took the teddy in and I gave it a home under one of the kids beds and I found it so when I'm clearing out all their toys getting rid of stuff I found it and I was at all what should I do if I I'm tall like how can I give you away I'm your adoptive mom and I just fell I just felt so bad but in the end I was like I had to tell myself this is just a teddy like it's a toy it's not real it is doesn't have feelings you're giving away all the other Teddy's so why would you give this away and then I started thinking oh my goodness the other Teddy's are gonna feel bad if I'm giving them away and I'm keeping one so I've had a real dilemma guys I gave the teddy to away to the charity show up I thought is that VPD thing like are we just so sensitive like super super super sensitive that we then get in our head toys have feelings so I got rid of the teddy anyway bad me what does this tree look like okay I'm getting there and um yes I was gonna like ask you guys have you ever had that with a toy or a doll or anything an inanimate object have you felt like you could feel its feelings like could you or is it just me is it just me that things like that because honestly I felt really really bad it's just like really bad Oprah god damn Teddy so so carried on clearing out everything I did a run to the charity shop today because at least then I know they're making money for charity I mean this and really nice stuff there so maybe a mum that can't afford to buy like a certain thing and they see it in the shop and they can get it really cheap and then they're happy the child's happy the charity shops happy I'm happy because I've cleared stuff out and so yeah like I think there's something really refreshing about clearing out all old stuff and after I'd got rid of the Teddy I felt really like empowered like I mean I felt a bit bad like I said but I also felt like yeah you know what it's people that matter and like life experiences not the stuff that we have and we accumulate and we store away so I would suggest it's a red light to you it's really cleansing go through all your stuff and stuff like that you've had for years but you wouldn't even notice if it was gone like you don't look there you don't why do we keep it player out get rid honestly it's so empowering like is just I feel like my head is clear because around me isn't a mess I mean right now it's nicer if I have one of the decorations everywhere I always like to stick with red and gold really traditional and I always have coloured lights I don't know why I think it reminds me of Christmases when I was a child and I used to like have amazing Christmases because my grandma or my grandpa he's passed away now but he used to like his house he'd make it look like Santa's grotto and that it was so exciting the only thing we weren't allowed to open any presence till after the Queen's speech and that's I think like three o'clock and as a child that's really hard seeing all the toys but I mean my cousins would be there and we always had a lovely day and so I suppose now I kind of want to replicate that for my kids so they have really happy memories of Christmas I mean I'm really fortunate my 19 year old still believes in Santa she's starting to doubt it and a little bit like she asked me but it's like what do you really think I would spend all that money buy a new rubbish and putting it in a stop Kim and she's like yeah that's true you wouldn't do that so she still believes which is nice how is this tree looking I'm missing this area I'm tired but save me I don't know funny this is the first year I've got the cats and I'm like what if they start trying to climb a tree they've already they were so excited the cats when I bought um they were so excited when I started bringing everything here like they thought it was a little party going on jumping over everything there so Christmas will be here soon I know it's a difficult time for a lot of people like I said like I've got bad memories but I'm quite good at blocking memories L so like my bad memories came later on like Edward as a child Christmas was a really magical time so yeah I kind of I get real excited about it I go on our what's it called uh where's my PNP pump which is portable North Pole and it's a website and you can make videos for your child and there's some free ones you can do or you can pay like well it's ten pound I think for the year so I do that because it's really worth it because then I can make any videos as I want so you have the actual center and the actual elves and real reindeer all in this video and you put your child's details in so like you put their name and then the elves go to the big library and they find a book and it's got your child's name on it and then you find out they're on the naughty list and as a parent you can choose where they are read obviously as naughty careens good or amber Santa's not sure and so last year by you for my daughter's elicit mentality yeah um really like playing the art causing me problems and uh I made a video have made it amber I wasn't mean enough to make it read but you know what she soon but her ideas up when she who she was on shoes oh my goodness I thought oh no Amelia you've only got a month to turn it around can you do it she was a little angel for the month so that worked treat and weapon is the little ones up here yeah I really hope the cats aren't going to die believe this so yes we have Christmas coming up Christmas is difficult I'm going to try and check in with you guys more by doing what's happened more regular videos I might do some live streams once a week to see how you guys getting on and we also then have the end of the year and that's what I kinda mean like it wherever there's immense there's a new beginning so if you feel like you've had a really bad year this year next year is a new year you can have a new start and maybe next year will be different so I'm like for me having the good good to clear out declutter everything it's like really refreshing I can go into the new year without my house full of rubbish and I think I think for me it's been like really nice because I've finally realized that Teddy's don't happy ings that similar to that color it's nearly 2 o'clock so what I'm going to do I'm thinking do I bring this in I might do the cooking with you another time because you don't know this but you are on a camera that is balanced on about 40 DVDs and it's wobbling slightly cuz I didn't want to put the camera down there because then you'd be looking at me like really unflattering so I have to put you up hi guys I'm sure I've just decorated this side that's okay because when people come in this is the side this see I'm not decorating the back of it because we don't see it I'm sure something you'll be going but I can't see it out of sight out of mind Bowl gonna go so yeah well today's video I suppose was about one decluttering like clearing because honestly if you clear your surroundings you feel better I mean there's the finish way where they say a few certain things in certain places you feel good and I definitely think there's something in that and I definitely feel so much like lighter now that half my rubbish has gone and I don't feel like I've got my Christmas decorations just masking all the mess underneath I've cleared it out first and yeah I kind of wanted to ask you do you think that's the BPD thing do you do you do you where can you go oh you've got dents in you or don't I'm gonna leave it guys thank you for decorating my decorating my tree with me or keeping me company while I did that I'll have to do the rest later call get on with the food Oh ever so tricky I had such a laugh yesterday so I've cleared out my cabinet I would move the camera bomb scared if I touch it it's just gonna all collapse so I cleared it out it's like got windows so you can see through my daughter had made me this little fairy and she painted it and so she put it right up it's I have it tucked in the corner at the back and she bought him right up his face is looking out look at it o Allah she was like are you laughing at my face I'm like no I love it hello it is really really good I love it but she's shy so she has to go at the back side she like you think she's horrible as I know I love her but she's a shy fairy so let's do it don't go back in Makaha right at the back and just for a few things in front of her I have such a nice mum but okay I'm gonna leave that because I do have to go and get tea neuron and do you know what I will do cooking with you one day [Music] why not why not say keep yourself safe I know Christmas is round corner lots of people going out work dudes that said truck you so safe I will check in with you more regularly yeah and I'll be back next week anyway guys what day is it I might try and do a livestream tomorrow I will let you know in the day how I'm going yeah I love you all
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